The new year always marks “new beginnings” or “new versions” that we promise to make of ourselves. We always want to lose a few pounds, we promise to be healthy eaters, we promise to be more humble, we make resolutions to move up in the work place, etc. I had no idea what I wanted my resolutions to be because I am always afraid of being seen as a failure or someone who can’t commit. So I gave up resolutions for good.
Up until about a week ago, I was going about the new year in a go-with-the-flow kind of way, while doing some music projects on the side. I was simply going to focus on making money to make ends meet, and maybe do what I love when there was time.
Then something hit me.
Not knowing where I’d end up in a year is incredibly scary to me. Not feeling in control of my own path is absolutely unnerving and something HAD to change. Just a week ago, not only did I become a typical human who has new year’s resolutions, but I set out to conquer those goals just within the first month of the new year of 2018. I wrote two new songs in 3 hours that I’ll be recording along with my other originals, I auditioned for The Voice (fingers crossed for the future), I joined the 80 Day Obsession workout regimen with BeachBody, and I’m going to become a certified Zumba instructor this weekend!
Here’s the thing. If you rely on anyone but yourself, you’re going to find a way to be disappointed. TAKE CONTROL of WHAT you want to do, WHERE you want to go, and WHO you want to be. If you’re the type of person that needs supportive advice or ears to listen to your ideas or complaints, then keep a close circle of supportive people. If there is one destructive personality in your circle, it could ruin many things to come.
Let yourself be happy by taking control of your life. There will be really high highs, and really low lows, but you just have to keep going.